So you're gone, and I'm haunted

Things come to me piece by piece,

                                                        word for word,

                                                     phrase by phrase.

     

  Endings,

                              middles,

                                                       new beginnings

come to me too.

He didn't come piece by piece,

he came as a whole

a sensory overload. 

You tied my hands

you twisted my tongue

you told me your lies

and showed me what I'd become;

a monster.

Nothing was familiar;

not a word                               

not a sound            

not a piece.

You left, you screamed

you walked right out that door.

You left me with this body, a nothing, a whore.

You got what you wanted 

and I got nothing more.

And now, when I think of you

I can can only think of one thing

are you happy with what you've done?

                                         

Felt just like home; except no grass, no yard, no pictures

Where's my pillow, where's my quilt

to save me from all this guilt.

         Bedtime stories are shut and forgotten;

 plucked away from our memories

Kisses goodnight are kisses long gone, 

and in the dead silence I can still hear your singing,

but,

         we're on our own tonight.

The only thing worse than growing up, is never quite learning how

Tinker toys, barbies

and cute little clocks.

Ovens, and Hot Wheels

and my little pet rock.

Dinosaurs, Ty's

and stars that glowed in the night

I just want to go back to when everything was right.

I locked my back to yours, it wasn't hard to find you painted flowers on it

If I was only allowed to remember one thing from my life,

it would be our friendship.

And honey you know me it's all or none

All I can hear is what you said to me.

There's a lack of color here

Sleepy mornings,

            rainy nights,

                     run through my mind

they remind me of you.

                   Our time was forever.

 Busy streets and lonely apartments

          the coffee's never strong enough

mornings and nights blend together

we stood out in the rain

and held each other tight

    because 

our time was forever.

And I'm barely listening to last demands

Fall out 

 your window

stroll down 

the street

stumble through

 the front door

and sing us all to sleep.

A stranger with your door key

Compartments,

everything neatly organized,

everything in it's place.

Until you came along

I can't put you in one place

I can't label you like everyone else.

And your here to stay,

so i better go buy a new cabinet.

So here I go

Blank pages

mock me,

feelings

push me

Time limits

frighten me,

but your words

stop me.