Hopelessly devoted, to you

Mr. Predictable,

                  always doing what your told

a foot never out of place

      Safe; 

                controlled.

But, maybe that's why I fell for you

knowing you wouldn't hurt me

knowing you'd never break my heart

never force me to feel the pain. 

But life with you got boring

and stale.

I'd never admit it, but you, are everything I hate.

Oh, but Mr. Cool

ride into town unannounced and unwelcome

walked straight up to me

and saw through all my shields.

We took off on your motorcycle leaving Mr. Predictable in the dust.

You took me to a new world that night

I place I'd never seen.

I'd lived here,

dreamt here,

but baby I was only sixteen.

Life was a constant blur

between the worlds

no lights

no sounds

no right and wrong

just you and me.

Sometimes you would scare me

with that rage in your eyes,

but you convinced me with those sweet lullabies.

                       

            Ten years later and we're still here

  you'd slap me around

                     and ask for a beer

 the bruises would ache

 the cuts would sting

 I almost left you

then you gave me that ring.

You got down on one knee

you said you were sorry for everything you've ever done

you told me everything I wanted to hear.

It was just how you were raised,

you'd fix it

 how sorry you truly were.

And that

you loved me.

and i believed you. 

I saw the sweetness I'd once seen.

how many times i hit the wall

i lost count

you let me go, I spun to quick I just screamed out to the cold.

how many times had i hit the floor

the smell of cigarettes and alcohol 

oh i knew it, all too well

i looked beside me, drops of blood

shit, I'd been here before.

The only thing I remember

was the warmness I felt,

just like when I was a kid.

I told the police what happened that night

I told them he had at least put a blanket on me

the police chief's hand came down with a thud

he just looked at me with sad, sorry eyes and said:

"Ma'am he left you lying in your own blood."